My First Drip!
The start of my new life begins from my day in a run down hospital at somewhere in China......
Friday, December 19, 2008
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
It's Winter Real Soon!
Today, I woke up from sleep at around 5 plus A.M. Couldn't really sleep well because of my sensitive nose that sniff Chao Tar smell from the heater in the room. So I took a stroll outside, and it was real freezing, I think it kind of hit zero degree in temperature. The feeling was sort of different from night strolls.
While I was walking, I could see the direction of where the sun is. I was hoping to see a sun rise, but it turned out to be a futile attempt. The whole place is so mountainous that most of the light will be blocked out by the terrain. Somehow as I was walking, I noticed that the grass I stepped on was hard, and I almost couldn't feel my toes. At first I thought it was nothing maybe just due to the cold.
However, as after 10 minutes or so as when the sun light gets brighter, I noticed that the grass I have been stepping on was frozen white. Not only was the grass frozen, but it also applied to the small plants around. It was quite shocking, as I didn't expect to see that, the feeling is like I am walking in an open space freezer.
The Day In Hospital
Somewhere on earth far far away from Singapore, I was sitting on a bench waiting to finish the 2 bottles of drip. It was all quiet, no noise, no power, just plain day light which shine on my face. To some people, it may be a boring day, but as for me I knew that after this day I will no longer be the same as before.
Memories upon memories, nightmares upon nightmares rendering inside my mind, reflecting on what I have done during these few years of my life. Just then, Xiao Feng Jie came in to the room, and brought me some bread. This is the lady who have brought an end to my miserable past for these 3 years in my Poly life. This is the lady who taught me to be optimistic, taught me to do things right no matter how tough they are, and never lose hope if I want to accomplish anything.
And that is the very day where I really set my mind that I want to get stronger within myself, learn to forgive myself, learn to take things on the bright side. It is always easy to say than getting it done, it's not going to be an overnight thing. All I can do is getting myself to find the real distortion, and the source of distortion is myself. I may not be the best person in the world, but I do believe I can be a better person in this place.......
